Revelations 12: 11 And they overcame him by the blood of the Lamb, and by the word of their testimony;  and they loved not their lives unto the death.

Dear Pastor:

I contacted you because I had been experiencing a host of seemingly inexplicable “psychologically related” attacks. My emotional troubles were probably rooted in my childhood experiences with horror movies, Ouija boards, and so on. I clearly remember fearing a visit from devilish forces after I saw the movie titled The Blood of Dracula.

My father had a pretty hot temper and was given to emotional outbursts. My survival response was to sulk and blame myself for upsetting him. Bottling my emotions inside became a way of life. As I grew into adulthood I continued to blame myself for any and all personal shortcomings and misfortunes.

Then I accepted Christ as my personal Lord and Savior. I grew spiritually over the next several years, but I never enjoyed complete peace. There was always a lingering doubt about my relationship with God, whom I saw as distant and stern. I had difficulty praying, reading the Bible, and paying attention to the pastor’s sermons. I seriously questioned the purpose of life. I experienced horrible nightmares that woke me up screaming.

It was during my time of prayer with you that I finally found freedom in Christ. I realized that God is not a harsh aloof disciplinarian, but a loving Father who takes joy in my accomplishments. I experienced a great release when I prayed through the final Step.

Now when I read God’s word I understand it like never before. I have developed a more positive attitude, and my entire relationship with my Lord has completely changed. Since our meeting I haven’t had one nightmare.

I’m afraid there are many Christians like me out there leading lives of “quiet desperation” due to the attack of demonic forces. If I can fall prey to these forces and seem all right, so can others.

This testimony was gathered from the following:

Anderson, Neil. The Bondage Breaker.Eugene:Harvest House, 2000. Print